Today it hit me. Like a bag of bricks, it's my last year of college. I'm a senior, in a foreign country where I feel like a freshman all over again. The pressure is external but it's causing me to feel like its "now or never" ... Right when I though "Thai time" was so amazing, western ideology tries to sneak its way in.
I just wanna like push a button and turn off the time in America. Can you image? People would probably go crazy because they wouldn't be going crazy trying to keep up with the time.
Counter productive.
So the reason for my vent is because of my situation:
#1 priority: GETTING MY DEGREE
I'm a senior who has changed major from undeclared to pre-studio art to communications to communications with a minor in journalism to now: a communication studies major with a ton of extra art credits.
33 units left to graduate.
I would have said "on time" but that's not even fair. On time to one person could be late to another. Oh like my brother who is in the "5 year program" ... What the heck does that mean?
Seems late to me ;)
So now I'm try to please my parents by getting my degree in May 2013.
Which would be "on time" because I'm on the "4 year plan" ....
I'm sorry but college itself is such a paradox. Don't EVEN get me started. I sincerely don't even frown upon anyone who took a passion and followed it after high school.
I don't want to come off unappreciative or whatnot but I truly feel alittle "feed up" with this ideology of education. That by getting my BA degree its going to change my life and all of these great opportunities are going to pop out. NOPE, life's going to continue on the same way and no one will even know that I spent 4 years of my life going to college.. Unless its on an application or someone asks.
What I have gained from college is experience, but not from the classroom.... From the relationships I've built and the places I've been.
In my opinion, Experience is 10x more important, useful and enjoyable than a textbook.
You want to learn something, you can learn it... Why do you need a piece of paper to prove your more qualified than someone else?
Anyways, enough complaining. College has taught me how to stay committed and be disciplined so I guess I'm doing something right.
In the end, I am not mad at my parents for pressuring me to get done if 4 years... I know they only want the best for me. I also know that's how they were conditioned/brought up and that is what they think will make me more successful in the long run.
There was something my teacher said yesterday that really made me feel good about sticking it out and made me feel motivated, he said: " This is the generation that thinks there going to be different... This country needs change,
Are you going to make a difference?
There is no universal right or wrong... Its your individual decision.
Make a choice... Think about it.
Ambition
Do something with your privileges.***
Have that mentality. The drive. The goal to succeed. To be happy."
I do feel very privileged and lucky to be going to school over here. I owe so much to my family back at home, they have no idea. I want them to know how much I appreciate there support: financially, emotionally and socially. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for all there hard work. (I'm talking about working not baby making)... because of there passion, selflessness and love I intend to get my degree May 2013.
Giving my parents happiness by accomplishing college will not justify how thankful I am for all they have done for ME, but I hope it will show them I DO CARE and I LOVE THEM so SO MUCH.
Time to go study. Xoxo
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